I got me a job. Starting monday :) and i understand there is a lack of updates. so many pictures that the thought of it makes me super lazy.
updates soon! (i try.)
*** somebody said they saw you, the person you were kissing wasnt me. And i would never ask you, i just kept it to myself. I don't wanna know, if you're playing me; keep it on the low. Cos my heart can't take it anymore and if you're playing me, please don't let it show.
i miss you bad.
Undecided? i'll come and provide it.
please please her 5:57:00 PM
Monday, September 03, 2007
Honest Mistake
Paul Van Dyk on saturday night the music is still in my ears Super super music but i have to admit the crowd was not my fancy i hated the fact someone was sweating up against me and it isnt my sweat by the way, its SOMEONE ELSE'S SWEAT! and i can smell body odour........ physiological nightmare; except for the sweet sounds that came from the speakers Dancing was a huge problem too. because I am so used to the space i m entitled at Attica when i was at zouk... i was squished so badly its not funny. half the time i was being shoved and it got me super irritated I met delia anyhows! she was walking infront of me! so we danced a bit togr and we managed to take pictures! weijian and some of the other flash and splash people were there too ((:
at the end of the night, me, michelle, sonja, rebecca were at attica attica much more moviing and dancing space. ALLELUIA to that! music was not as good of course but they played sonja's fav song which is also mine now (besides FASHIONISTAAA).. "destination unknown" wooo! SONJA, I FOUND THE SONG ONLINE! I DOWNLOADED IT! I uploaded on my facebook! i hope you can hear it!
Sunday: i went for the commex fair with michelle to get us each 160gig hard drives (portable) cos my current 80 gig is too little for all my movies and videos and fresh shows (: and michelle has promised me greys anatomy season 1-3. i should got get sex and the city 1 -6 since i have soooo much space now ;) WOOT WOOT!
anyhoos, i went to Km8 with mich to meet sonja, anna, jane later on it was super chill super nice night a lil drizzly raindroppy but well, didnt spoil my mood for sure i enjoyed it lots! first time trying this blue cocktail which tastes mild and nice.. BUT SERIOUSLY you wont know what hit you if you drink lots at one go cos the effect does not come till later... which explains why i woke this morning with a splitting headache but km8, is going to be my newww place to be on sundays! while wednesdays is fashion bar ;)
T. is back from bangkok ((:
***
Everyone is changing there's noone left that's real to make up your own ending and let me know just how you feel cause I am lost without you I cannot live at all my whole world surrounds you I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone you could be my scene you know that i'll protect you from all of the obscene I wonder what you're doing imagine where you are there's oceans in between us but that's not very far
please please her 12:47:00 PM
Saturday, September 01, 2007
Forget Yesterday
super late update. been busy, lazy, bumming, going out, doing things i shouldnt be doing, thinking about things i shouldnt know, learning languages for people i shouldnt learn for. So many things on my agenda of late. More things weighing on my mind thats been such a burden. I just want to run far away from everything.
Nonetheless, Wednesday was fashionn bar night. Marie was leaving back to Paris. T.'s flatmate's gf. We had dinner at his place first; followed by fashion bar. I am lazy. Pictures do the talking.
girl with her arms around me is marie (:
my favourite boy's flatmate
i enjoyed my night. it was filled with emotions galore as always. but i m so used to all these emotions galore that it just absorbs into me. Marie has left :( she's a sweet girl i'm going to miss seeing her around the house. After fashion bar, we were at attica more drinks more happy happy bubbly bubbly I left attica w mich, rebecca around 2.30 and got home around 3 i didnt sleep. i was supposed to wake in a few hours for school. and i had to give tibo a wake up call in the morning. but seeing him had so much to drink, i believe alcohol works as a anesthetic and puts grown men to sleep like dead logs when they hit the sack. so i planned to go over to tibos place to wake him up personally at 5 am he had a flight to bangkok at 7.30am he didnt want to wake up and was still obviously swirling in the effects of alcohol i managed to drag him out of bed at 5.45am super late for his plane alrdy and i had no sleep, so i was half high half sleepy my brain was swimming in my head. i felt so high that morning bottomline, he still missed his plane and i didnt sleep all day, going to school like fucking zombie
well, he is in bangkok now nonetheless, and i miss him.
***
Could we rewind to a place where its just you and me, where nothing else and no one else matters?
Because I am so suffocated, I can hardly breathe without you by my side...
please please her 3:21:00 PM
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
the view i miss on the weekdays when i wake and you're not there.
Its weekdays that make me miss you having your arms around me as I sleep; going home late from your place is such a pain as i take the cab back to my cold empty bed. Its weekends where I wake up with a warm smile on my face having seen you sleep next to me in such serenity and comfort. I don't know how long we're going to last. I don't know when will come the day I feel your lips on mine for the final time. I don't know why your smell lingers so strongly on me I don't know when will be the next time you'd call me I don't know how you managed to make me feel this way
But I do know that nothing is for certain, no one predicts what happens in the future, its all tentative and not written on stone.
Right here and now, you're all I ever want and more ((:
***
Closer to where i started, chasing after you I'm falling even more in love with you, letting go of all i held on to I'm standing here until you make me move I'm hanging by a moment here with you (: I'm living for the only thing I know I'm running and not quite sure where to go I don't know what I'm diving into Just hanging by a moment here with you There is nothing else to lose There is nothing else to find There is nothing in the world That could change my mind There is nothing else
This weekend. Friday stayed home. dead shit tired. slept early. Saturday spent the afternoon listening to paul van dyke/ tiesto/ bennassi/ armin superbbb tunes. My absolut fav now is "fashionista" - Jimmy James they play this very often in fashion bar which i been to on most wednesdays. I am super humoured when i hear the part which goes "no one ugly allowed" take a listen (:
so around 9 i headed to michelle's place to get some heroes and rip some movies from her. got to his place at 10-ish, 11. We watched heroes finished. till the last ep which by the way i m quite unhappy about the ending. we stayed up talking for a bit till around 3 and fell asleep probably the first night me being w him and he wasnt out on a saturday night. he said he was tired. so we slept; it was super sweet cos all night i was in his arms ((: we woke at noon; took the vespa down to holland v for ya kun kaya toast yummy soft boiled eggs and toast (: headed back to his place within an hr
He said he needed to clear his place I helped him straighten up his room, sweep the floor, wash the dishes, wash his bathroom, fold his clothes. was super tired after i was done. had a nice cold shower and we just sat around doing nothing; feeling the breeze by his balcony came evening, he left for his friends place while i went home
(funny story this photo: T. was playing with my phone, and he insisted in taking a picture and he asked me to kiss him and we'll take the picture and i ended up laughing and touched his face and he snapped the picture, then he started whining about how i didnt kiss him)
nothing says it best than a long hug by the balcony and the taste of perfection in a kiss.
back to work tmr. i highly dread. boo.
*** I don't know why i let it go too far; your heart's where I lay my head
please please her 9:00:00 PM
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
i miss you so so badly. i just want you to hold me and tell me that my wait is over. when will your friends from france leave? 2 more days of endurance.
you've left me feeling empty without you
please please her 10:31:00 AM
Monday, August 20, 2007
The boy is spending time with his friends who flew in from france. I havent spoken nor seen him in a long time, feels like a whole weekend without him :( I miss him immensely.
***
"when you walk away, i count the steps that you take do you see how much i need you right now? when you're gone the pieces of my heart are missing you when you're gone the face i came to know is missing too ad when you're gone the words i need to hear will always get me through the day and make it okay i miss you.
Everything i do, i give my heart and soul, I can't hardly breath i need to feel you're here with me."
please please her 9:31:00 PM
Sunday, August 19, 2007
The Superfly Friday
In retrospect, i'd blog about my TGIF aka, my day off spent with the lovely Richelle. We headed to the Singapore Science Centre and owned the place balls. Took so many pictures, whatever I am posting is about 3/4 of what we have, nonetheless, it was a superfly day!
I was super happy.
Pictures speak a thousand words [serious visual damage]:
Kids now have a pool to play in?! lucky bastards.
This left us in stitches and mad laughter
"In recent news, Singapore Science Centre has been invaded by two girls"
Incubator! chicks! I want!
The Skinny Mirror (left) and The Dislocated Mirror (Right)
On TV!
The Electric Chair. Add 1 dollar to get Shocked!
In IMAX theatre ;)
THE END (:
***
i miss you :(
please please her 10:43:00 PM
Some people want it all But I don't want a thing at all. If it ain't you, baby. If I ain't got you baby. Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything. But everything means nothing if I ain't got you.
please please her 6:02:00 PM
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Superfly.
After 3 failed attempts; Jillian has successfully surprised T. at his office (with dinner) for the first time on 15 August, arriving at 2011hrs. She was greeted with the initial look of shock on his face followed by a warm grin.
She left the office with T. at 2040hrs. The two headed to his place nearby his office. T. and Jillian had dinner by his balcony; super sweet! They watched "Dane Cook", laughing at his funny antics, followed by "50 first dates" which they both fell asleep watching. They woke in the morning to a sounds of morning rain.
Jillian enjoys T.'s company much much. T. makes her a happy girl. She is missing him bad right now :( She hopes to see him soon; she can't wait for the weekend to come. TGIF!
***
It's you there when I close my eyes. And you in the morning (: I never thought you'd still be mine
please please her 8:02:00 PM
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
[edit: 1.08pm// 16 Aug 2007: more gwen pictures]
The Sweet Escape Tour
went for the Gwen stefani's concert with Vanessa I m not going to say how superb it was; cos i didnt think it was that great in comparison to what i'd usually see on MTV awards and such. Gwen was overly confined to the stage. My cam zoom function was screwed. it didnt wanna zoom like it should. tsk.
She was always on stage, singing around the stage. she never fly around, jump out from somewhere, surprise the audience or something. It woulda been great if she did tho; only part that excited the audiences most was when she started running and sitting next to people within the audience.
overall, dancers, music and clothes were impressive ;) She sand quite a bit of hit songs and some others from her 2 albums (: i enjoyed "Hollaback girl", "wind it up", and "sweet escape" loads But for the price i paid (category 2), i expected much more earwax-arousal from her as a music industry entertainer. Howell, when Gwen Stefani spoke, i like the fact there was no arrogance about her. she was genuinely nice as it seemed (:
After the concert, met up w my lil brother, his gf and gf's sister. called for cab which took forever to come. T. called for one for me too there was a major clog of cabs which were on call/ hired outside the indoor stadium. Left for T.'s place after; was a surprise.
he smiled widely as he opened the door saying he expected to see me. tsks. some surprise! pfft! doesn't matter, as long as he greets me with a big smile and kiss ;) we watched "monsters inc" I loveee that animation; the lil girl is sooo super cute. went home at 4am
went to sch this morning completely stoned and zombiefied. i m going to nap now; surprising the boyfriend later at his office which i intend to make sure is a success this time; then maybe fashion bar. toodle-deeee!
***
"You're perfect; I don't think i'll be able to find another girlfriend like you in Singapore who treats me the way you do."
please please her 2:41:00 PM
Jillian B.
estb nov17nineteen85
music/ movie junkie Fragile; Please handle with care single
temperamental. scorpian
exijtp.cjc
monash university (TMC Singapore) applying for honors in psychology; specializing in clinical
hoping to do certificate in hypno-therapy
aspiring neuropsychologist; dealing with patients with brain injuries, assisting in memory recall.
